Just as true as it is to say, “waiting is a part of life”, sometimes you just have to be told by someone you admire that, “it’s not your turn”. Heather Thompson Day is that friend and her new book is called It’s Not Your Turn: What to do While Waiting for Your Breakthrough.
May you read this book and find yourself learning to know and be fully known by God.
In the darkness these words were a haunting challenge to me. A challenge of whether I was willing to let the Refiner free in my life.
The way it appears to me, is that the pandemic has created trauma in everyone and as a result the veneer of civility has been removed from all of us at once. All of our worst sides have been exposed at the same time.
Maybe I am even more amazed by what God didn’t allow me to do. How God didn’t let me serve where my heart wanted. How God closed ministry opportunities that I thought had finally arrived. All because He loved me enough to grow me into who I am now.
Nothing could have prepared me for the last ten years, and to be honest, I am glad I wasn’t prepared. Those years brought me to the point where I had to confront my deepest fears, address the deep seeded sin in my life, and rely on God in a way I could have never imagined.
You are also tired, because if you are giving the impression that you have this whole life thing under control you don’t need help. Yet the truth is, is that you are struggling, but are too proud to ask for help
My pride kept me from sharing the forgiveness of Christ because I didn’t think I deserved the grace of God. I had lived too long thinking that since I did good things, God loved me. I got the grace of God because I earned it.
There is no place too sacred where pride cannot be found. As we seek humility, we have to be more aware of when pride comes. We don’t need to become complacent about seeking humility and guarding against pride.
May I never be satisfied with tainted service to Christ; service done with a proud heart. I want humility to be the heartbeat of my life.