I wrote this as a reminder for myself and for my family to see God’s hand through this. God is still faithful and He is still a healer.
Right now, in the messiness of ministry, life is hard and my heart hurts.
In the darkness these words were a haunting challenge to me. A challenge of whether I was willing to let the Refiner free in my life.
The way it appears to me, is that the pandemic has created trauma in everyone and as a result the veneer of civility has been removed from all of us at once. All of our worst sides have been exposed at the same time.
In my heart, I knew that this would be the last thing I would say to Jennifer. I am not sure if it was the pressing of the Holy Spirit or intuition, but I knew these were my last words, so I didn’t spare them.
Wrestling with the pain and struggles in life doesn’t push us away from Christ it draws us near to Him.
I want my hands to be covered in soil and joyfully declaring the goodness of God...
Maybe I am even more amazed by what God didn’t allow me to do. How God didn’t let me serve where my heart wanted. How God closed ministry opportunities that I thought had finally arrived. All because He loved me enough to grow me into who I am now.
Today is my husband’s 33rd birthday. ... There are too many things about Scott Donald Wagoner that need to be celebrated.
Trust isn’t based on your feelings. That is a good thing when you have become so numb that you cannot feel anything anymore. Trust believes that God’s love endures forever