In the darkness these words were a haunting challenge to me. A challenge of whether I was willing to let the Refiner free in my life.
The way it appears to me, is that the pandemic has created trauma in everyone and as a result the veneer of civility has been removed from all of us at once. All of our worst sides have been exposed at the same time.
In my heart, I knew that this would be the last thing I would say to Jennifer. I am not sure if it was the pressing of the Holy Spirit or intuition, but I knew these were my last words, so I didn’t spare them.
Wrestling with the pain and struggles in life doesn’t push us away from Christ it draws us near to Him.
I want my hands to be covered in soil and joyfully declaring the goodness of God...
Maybe I am even more amazed by what God didn’t allow me to do. How God didn’t let me serve where my heart wanted. How God closed ministry opportunities that I thought had finally arrived. All because He loved me enough to grow me into who I am now.
God doesn't want you to take the easy way, because He loves watching you grow.
Nothing could have prepared me for the last ten years, and to be honest, I am glad I wasn’t prepared. Those years brought me to the point where I had to confront my deepest fears, address the deep seeded sin in my life, and rely on God in a way I could have never imagined.
My watch battery died at 10:57 yesterday morning. I know it was that time, because the time is frozen there.
My pride kept me from sharing the forgiveness of Christ because I didn’t think I deserved the grace of God. I had lived too long thinking that since I did good things, God loved me. I got the grace of God because I earned it.